We Laugh At Danger And Break All The Rules

whoops, I guess I didn’t delete this

the reason is, my original intent was to delete it to support my girlfriend, based on some facts she told me, however the reason I didn’t was the facts might have been slightly sketchy. So i decided not to delete it but I then realized that this site was for me somewhat of a waste of time, I simply don’t have time this semester, further more I find myself disliking the current tumblr culture and repulsed that there IS a tumblr culture. Tumblr and me and always been at odds with each other I couldn’t understand the site at all when I first got one two years ago, now I understand it and it just seems pointless and while there are people who have wonderful blogs out there  and I don’t mean to knock them, it is simply not something for me. To be honest I only got a tumblr cuz of my ex-girlfriend and then when we broke up I decided I wasn’t gonna care as much. When my current far superior girlfriend got one I was back on the bandwagon. What I’m trying to say is it was never for me, it was always just a means to feel connected to someone but in the end I felt more estranged and distant from them both. Nothing feels worse then reading a post you wish you never read, that you were never meant to see. So I guess that’s that, I’m just gonna leave this here as a preservation of what was once there. I may make more posts I may not. I have no idea what will happen with anything but it’s time to move on. Good bye for now.

I’m going to find and save any artwork or writing I’ve made before I delete this. This site only brings me bad memories anyways.

I’m probably going to delete both my tumblrs soon.

abetterplaceabettertime22:

I don’t want to be associated with a site that makes me sick to me stomach. Everyone, read this:

http://www.pcmag.com/article2/0,2817,2400634,00.asp

So it’s ok to joke about suicide, eating disorders, and self-harm, but it’s not okay to belong to a community of people who support each other and give each other hope.

Fuck you Tumblr. 

(via abetterplaceabettertime22-deact)

Okay I think the first poem is gonna be called clamoring for winters end and the second is called a better me leaving the third to be titled the useless preparation

clamoring for winters end

I was torn between donnie darko and and 50 days of summer. I really feel like watching eternal sunshine but I don’t own that movie unfortunately. I’m going with 500 days tonight but if this feeling stays then I’m going to donnie darko tomorrow night.

Clamoring for winters end
I feel my will begin to bend,
so cast my love off like a stone
into a pond, we’re children grown,
my love will make the waters sway
but in the end it’s dead and gray,
weak waters claimed my soul you see
but spring may raise a better me,

A better me won’t wail and pout
no lonely city to while about
so spring bring forth a better me
so I may sing a smile to thee
a feeling filled with such empty
replaced by color and reverie
The stars will shine, the flowers will bloom
once again my skies will turn to blue

So in the end we’ll search the sea
of answers, ashes and rosaries
such petty answers for silly questions
In a life worth living is death mentioned? 

I don’t normally write poetry but I felt inspired I don’t feel miserable anymore so it worked I guess. Idk if thats one long poem or 2 poems or 3. the last part is a completely different train of thought. lemme know if you like it. It’ll mean a lot.